Have you ever ...

Have you ever ask yourself why things happen ? Why they happen all at once and everything pile up like a moutain . 

Have you ever wonder why do they leave at a time like this ? Why they left without any reason and leave u hanging there ; helplessly . 

Have you ever dreamt about things that you know will never , ever happen ? Why do we even have such thoughts?  

We have so much questions . Yet, the only way to find the answers is to search deep within ourself . Its hard to find something that is burried over all the pain and unhappiness that you kept in your heart . It was never easy trying to change or delete those emotions and pain . 

" Your the main character of your own story , You control the pages and the Chapters " . Each chapters tells a story , a story never known to others but only to ones' self . 

" i've lost the moon while counting the stars "

Sometimes i have thoughts of giving up , my friends never know what i am thinking , they never know what i will do . But some how it was always those closest to me that made me say things i never wanted . Someone told me i was strong , that i am always so happy and positive . I wish i am like this , but sadly ; i am the opposite . The outer character shows people what i want them to see . However , the inner character are only seen by my family or my close friends ( 1-2 of them ) . 

They said those who canportray different kind of characters are those who are strong , a strong will power and a strong personality. Don't anyone felt this way too ?

I ain't no super-hero .